#95 - Abandonment of 365 project

This is very sad. Finally, I have decided to abandon my 365 project. Reason being is mainly I have no time, either to snap photo or to post it in blog. I was extremely busy both with work and real life. And I will be still busy later.
Sad.. Because after many considerations, I have decided to take this challege. But unfortunately I cannot see it to the end.

#94 Day 74-75/365 :Weekending

I was unable to update because of my busy schedule and I wasn't well last weekend.

But on Sunday, I was determined to breathe outside air. 3 days in the house not good for me.

Last week was a bit too much for me.

I was in very heavy stressed because of works and colleague.

For almost 10 years I was working, this was one of the most heavy pressure I ever had.

Maybe 1-2 occasions because of my ex-boss that have bring such pressure.

But this was the hardest in the new company.

In 4 years.

The extreme to the extend, I got headache everyday. Back pain. Stomach ache. Name it.

I didn't dare to go to see doctor because I was afraid of the diagnose. 

I know these symptoms.  I just don't want the confirmation from doctor.

Luckily, there was weekend, that I can start breath easy for awhile.

Though I was sick, the weekend interval still most welcomed.

The drop after a heavy raining last night. The air so refreshing.

It was like the rain swept and cleaned away the poluted, the smog, the haze, the dirk from the air.

#93 Day 73/365 :Sunset..

The sunset shot was taken from the last time I went outing with me close friend on a trip we called  'appreciating nature'.

I missed this kind of outing. But nowadays, everyone busy with their lives.

This kind of trip has becomes one of the luxuries that we rarely can afford and spare.

#92 Day 72/365: Strawberry..

   A gift from a friend.

Thank you..

#91 Day 71/365

Here we go with random shot of the day...

#90 Day 70/365 : Simple things..

Coincidentally, I snapped a random shot of a potted plant 

that looked simple and normal and random

but it can give a different ambient to a space.

Coincident I said, because today I did some things that seems simple 

with less thought but some got different appreciation from others.

I helped picked a book and a file for a lady, 

and she smiled at me with the brightest and sincerest smile,

I felt like I did a very big heroic thing.

I saw a common acquaintance and said Hi to her,

and her expression changed from gloomy to a smiley face,

like she didn't expect it.

I was too busy that I didn't plan to go out for lunch.

Yet I did went out accompanying a colleague 

when I saw her like in desperate need of break.

Then she thanked me, 'for a wonderful lunch'

she said.

And later when I was coming back from work,

it was raining quite heavy,

I stretched my umbrella a bit to offer a little shelter for a lady,

while waiting for our turn to get onto the bus.

Though not much help, and we both still getting wet,

yet again, a sincere smile and thank you were given to me.

Simple things, cost no money, not much effort,

well, maybe a bit of wet,

guaranteed me with beautiful, sincere, bright smile.

What else can I ask to make my day.

Thank you. 

#89 Day 69/365 : Rose...

Dear Blog-sama,

How was your day today?

I was very busy. Dateline on 20th but too many unfinished tasks. 

I would be more relieve if those are individual tasks.

But most need other colleagues.

Luckily for me, today was a bit peaceful day in the office.

I can work with minimum hindrances.

Hopefully I can finish on time.

#88 Day 68/365

Small white that usually used to complete a bouquet.

On its own, not really favored by most.

#87 Day 67/365

eating lots of these since yesterday..

#86 Day 66/365 :The lake

The scenery I'll see if I want to get better health.

This is the lake of the park that I usually went for jogging.

#84 Day 64/365 : Just being me..

I don't know what to call myself or describe 'me'. No ambition? Too low self-esteem?
Maybe all of that.

Today a friend was talking about how she thought that she needed professional help regarding her 'problem' of cannot be spontaneous in public speaking. Whether during presenting projects or during q&a in meetings.
she said she needs notes most of the time.

All these times, I never good at public speaking. Presenting project always a hell. Answering questions during meeting always giving me heart attack. Though I have ideas, I never be able to fully convey the ideas. And sometimes, I can even made people more confused with my explanation.

And yet, never have I thought about seeking professional help.

So, really, back to the question. How to describe myself?

#83 Day 63/365 : A bouquet

Another bribe?

A bouquet of lovely and vibrant roses never failed to lift up your mood.

#82 Day 62/365 : Kitty named Snow

Dear Blog-sama,

My apologies for neglecting and missing lots of post. I was away since last week.

With limited access to internet plus too much stuff to do, I have no choice.

To bribe you, I give you my sister's kitty named Snow.

The darling of my sister's family.

I will try to be good and post more frequently and not failing this 365 project.

Love sincerely,

Anna

#81 Day 61/365

The same set as yesterday.

I love its vibrant color.

Bringing a good mood and happiness.

How a flower can bring happiness?

Don't ask. 

It just did.

#80 Day 60/365 : Yellow Roses

What is it with female and their love of flowers?

Though I do not consider myself as girlish, I too love flowers.

I love its different shades of colors.

I love its different shapes.

I love its unique and individual different fragrant.

I love the different moods it represents.

I love the idea how some flowers can only be found at some places only

and ow excited can ones get when found the flower at the unexpected place.

Flowers always cheer my day.

#79 Day 59/365:

Took a little to walk a bit.

This was the place where I usually had my little exercise. 

Not as much as I should be or I want to but at least once a month.. ^__^

Not the nicest photo since I took the shot from my phone with weird setting. 

But I still love it.

Applause to that lone jogger for his effort. 

Which of course more than mine.

#78 Day 58/365

An honest way.

For a meal on the table for the family.

What wouldn't you do?

#77 Day 57/365 :Tired

Needed a rest for a bit after a long walk..

#76 Day 56/365

Random shots.. Looking at these makes me realized my photography skills still sucks as ever. Well, I don't care. Not like I bother anyone.

#75 Day 55/365

Lets have a little walk..

#74 Day 54/365 : Yummy.. again..

Yummy..

My fingers itching to snatch the tempting fried chicken.

#73 Day 53/365 : Of Sleep..

I love sleeping but I'm not good at it.
I sleep when I was not supposed to.
I awake when I was supposed to sleep.
I have hard time to sleep at night.
I have hard time to get up in morning.

But still, I love sleeping. ♥

#72 Day 52/365 : An Innocent Smile

A child's innocent smile makes me believe there's still goodness and innocents in the world

even after reading lots of bad news in the newspaper or watching it on television.

#71 Day 51/365

Yet again another random shot. :-)

#70 Day 50/365

A random shot of grass and moss on a hill.

#69 Day 49/365 : Book

Finished reading this book. Not a new book. I got this in a second-hand bookstore for a very cheap price. I like Linda Howard but not all her books were in my 'recommended-list'. Always hit or miss. However Now You See Her is quite okay. Though not as much as I like To Die For or  Mr Perfect, but good enough that I can recommend this book.

Shortly, the story was about Sweeney, a painter, that has the ability to see ghost. And now she got a new gift. Clairvoyant. She dreamt about a murder that yetto happened. Though not able to stop the murder from taking place, she painted the scene of the killing.

Basically it was a romance novel but the side story was good too.

Ohh.. The hero's name was Richard Worth. First I met Bloodworth in To Die For. And now Worth??

#68 Day 48/365

Price of development. 

The old flat gone and now the development of new service apartment.

Meaning more expensive housing.

I keep procrastinating buying a house. Now it is hard to find a house that I can afford.

I don't need a big house. 

Just enough space for me is enough.

But with that simple conditions already me crying.

T__T

#67 Day 47/365 : Scenery

Another photo from the last trip to Malacca. I love the strait and the colorful buildings at each sides. I was standing there for quite some times, doing nothing, not thinking, just enjoying the view, until my sister called me. It was very peaceful despite the heat.

Wonder when can I have this kind of trip again.

#66 Day 46/365 : Dora

My niece's book. Her renditions of Dora adventure's stories always brought smiles to my face.

#65 Day 45/365 : Comfort

A very comfortable couch. Lazying on it was heave.

Too bad it was not mine. 

#64 Day 44/365 :Neko-chan

My sister's cat lazying around on the  green grass. She was staring at me, wondering what I was doing with my weird post and this camera in front of her. I wished she could smile. then again a smile from a cat would be weird. LOL!!

Dear blog-san,
How are you doing? I am as good and fine as I can. Sorry for the delay but my pc had trouble of accessing this blog. I will post the drafts I made while I was having the trouble. Okay?

#63 Day 43/365

Red eggs. Got this from a colleague as part of a lunch package to celebrate her one-month old baby. Wishing all the best for her and her family. Her baby is super cute!!

#62 Day 42/365

Works piled up. Everyone except me in holiday mood.

But weekend coming in another 1 day.

Then 4 days non-working days.

Then My father coming to town.

Then I will meet my elder sisters and brothers.

And why I am not in holiday mood???

#61 Day 41/365

I said something I regretted today.

Without thinking, the words just coming out of my mouth.

Though I do think he deserved it, but it is still not a good behaviour.

No, I am not he nicest person. 

But that doesn't make what I did, right.

I just hope it will not haunt me one day.

#60 Day 40/365 : Rock

 Rock your world!!

#59 Day 39/365

My family is my backbone.

Without them, I don't know how can I go through my life.

I am not strong enough.

#58 Day 38/365:

* Hard Rock Cafe Malacca

Already first day of second month in 2013.

Time flies so fast when we didn't expect it.

First month passed by without any big incident. I felt blessed and grateful.

Hoping for a blessing months coming.

#57 Day 37/365

My tired ugly feet after a very long walk..

#56 Day 36/365

     “We sit silently and watch the world around us. This has taken a lifetime to learn. It seems only the old are able to sit next to one another and not say anything and still feel content. The young, brash and impatient, must always break the silence. It is a waste, for silence is pure. Silence is holy. It draws people together because only those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking. This is the great paradox.”

- Nicholas Spark 'The Notebook'

#55 Day 35/365 : Away..

*from our hotel balcony at Pulai Spring Resort

     I was away on a trip to south with my sister. I haven't been to this part of the country for many years So I was really looking forward to the trip.

     The plan almost cancelled because my sister had fever a day before, and not yet fully recovered on the planned day. But my brother-in-law who was our designated driver proposed to continue for the trip. My sister as was bed-ridden for 2 days. He thought that it might be a good thing to get out of the house for a change. Luckily, he was right. My sister did getting better.

   
    I planned to take lots of photo during the trip. Unfortunately, I wasn't really a real photographer or jurugambar tegar. I did not take that many pictures. I was merely enjoying the trip. Enjoy the change of air. The change of scenery. The long drive..

**will talk about the trip in next post..

#54 Day 34/365

It's not that we surrendered our life to fate 

but sometime we can only plan but fate get in the way. 

God's will.

But never to blame the fate.

It will get you nowhere.

#53 Day 33/365

Was unable to update yesterday and will be unable for more days since I will be on a trip with my sister. Not good for this 365 project isn't it? But so far, I have surpassed my expectation. From the beginning I know I wont be able to update too frequent but until today I have posted more that I can imagine I will.
I have to be even more frequent, isn't it?
If someone asked me, what can I achieve with this 365 thingy? I am not out to impress anyone. I just want  something to do. Plus once a while pouring my heart is good to release some of the stress which I know a lot bottled up in me.
What actually worth of this? My satisfaction.
That's all and that's enough.

#52 Day 32/365 : Green

Hectic days at work since last week. We had many projects due today. So coding and coding and coding. Finally after 6pm today, we can have easier breathes.
Tomorrow will another new cycle. I hope we have bigger gap till next project due.

#51 Day 31/365 Another Monday

Something new today?
Nothing. But I am not demotivated.
A bad start which I totally blamed the Monday Blues 'desease'. I was a bit grumpy (a bit??).
Then I managed to block all the annoying noises and concentrated on my work.
I solved 4 out of 5 issues in my list-to-solve-today.
I has an enjoyable lunch with a colleague.
A good news from a friend saying she safely arrived home.
Ate 2 pieces of Ferrero Rocher.. Yummy!!.

Sad thing for today, I have to depart with my $45 for last week office dinner.
All in all, I am still grateful for today.

Green froggy I found during netsurfing.

#50 Day 30/365

My breakfast today.. Canned baked bean. Don't tell me it is healthy or not.
The most important thing I was very hungry and this is the easiest breakfast I can prepare today.
Yummy....

#49 Day 29/365

Note to myself...